YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME, FATTY...

WEEK 26.5

*Both are profiles of her cute little face. Her head is on the left with her right arm over her belly. The first picture shows a more visible profile and that cute button nose and lovely lips. Kinda looks like she is smiling :)
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Today was devastating. I think I am still reeling from this trauma. Even after whining, crying, and pondering my thoughts about this with Michelle, I'm still just mortified!!

Today, as you can see (go back and look at that face), we saw out Little Bean at our monthly check up. This was amazing, of course. I love seeing her, more so after holding a cute little 5-month old baby girl at work. Oh, I just longed to hold Sofia, my little girl!!

[sweetness]

Anyhow, Ryan was once again able to attend our doctor's appointment. This has amazing; he has made every single one!! We banked on 2 over the 9-month course due to his unpredictable work schedule (though he had to be at work in a few hours).

Routine: check-in, pee in a cup, sit and wait, get called in by Yvonne, blood pressure, temperature...check. Then, there is the time of weighing in. I have just gotten over the fact that I weigh more than Ryan, okay, I get this but ... but ... BUT...I have gained 7 pounds since my last visit..........4 weeks ago!!!

WTF??

I felt sick and distraught. I went into immediate denial. I asked Ryan, "how much did I weigh last visit?" In my head, maybe I didn't remember correctly? I honestly just thought, no biggie, lets move on to exam room 3 (boooo, cruddy room again) and waited.

Long story short, my doctor became concerned after reviewing last visits information and the abnormal weigh gain and all the panic I had 20 minutes ago came back. Oh heavens, I have gone and gained this excessive weight! How? I eat fairly well if not, very well. My doctor asked what I was eating. I just couldn't imagine since I don't really have fast food, too much processed foods, I avoid sweets to the best of my ability, and trust me this has been hard. I think about what I'm feeding Sofia all the time and I monitor closely. Ask my co-workers, they make fun of my discipline, strict eating habits.

Oh! This can begin to explain the back pain! The extra weight has taken it's toll. Ryan said he may have not kept a close enough eye on me. I don't think that is fair to say 'cos he doesn't really let me do much anyway and I do have a tendency of not listening anyway. I'm stubborn that way, okay?

[hmmph]

But...oh grief...

Now I have to go weigh back in 2 weeks, email my doctor with my current weight. Oh, and I am now anemic! See, this is what I get. I have been happy to report that all has been well and no real issues to speak of. She has been great! No complains. I jinxed it!

[ARRRGGHHHHH]