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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

OUR HOUSE…IN THE MIDDLE OF THE...

WEEK 16

Feeling good and just about to debut my belly, as I need “real” mommy clothes. This week began with me coming to grips with that fact that my normal fat” clothes were now too small for me. This was a tough one but I have definitely gotten a sense of humor about this. I officially wore my ‘Motherhood top I purchased when I just had found out I was 4/5 weeks pregnant and went “trifting” with Michelle. It was just an odd purchase ‘cos it was so big and tent-y looking then but now, that top is awesome. I just had a co-worker tell me she knew I was pregnant about 2 weeks ago. I just officially told her Friday after school and there is no sense in hiding, I guess, but you know I’ll try. Thankfully, most are polite and don’t ask.

I was still able to manage one last purchase at Fashion 21 (the OG Forever 21), sneaking in a large dress and top and fitting it fairly nicely. I needed a camouflage dress for Michelle’s birthday BBQ Saturday night. I am still stubborn and refuse to make an announcement of it, especially at someone else’s birthday party. Ryan, though nursing a cold, was able to go with me!! And of course, he managed, in his illness, to spill the Little Beans to our neighbor. That stinker! But a highlight was the Porto's cakes!!! I had to purchase a carrot cake so I could join in and well, so that Michelle could hog up the traditional, PARISIAN delight I had to miss out on this year for my birthday but she thoroughly enjoyed, I am sure. Look at it, wouldn't you?

Fashion aside, this week ended with Ryan and I officially becoming homeowners! What a scary feeling. We both jumped out of the plane, so to say, together. My lovely mother-in-law did mention that it was no wonder I was becoming ill and struggling through some painful headaches some weeks back with all the stresses of a pregnancy, a new job, and buying a new house. Of course I had not even thought about it that way and she was right. Maybe I overlooked these facts because everything was moving so fast, at once. The idea of stress and this pregnancy has me on high alert. I am definitely making all efforts to SLOW DOWN as much as I can because in the end, of course, what matters is this little baby, which, by the way, no sign of movement yet. Maybe during week 17 when the excitement of a new house will get him/her excited.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

BACK TO THAT GOOD FEELING...

WEEK 15

This week definitely began on brighter note. My headache, the one I nursed for a whole week, who some have called my first official “migraine” has pretty much faded. Thursday was the first day I went to work with the full energy to do what I love! I feel myself again. This was a great start and was generally the end of a pretty good week.

Work, busy and a bit stressful, is getting a little under control.

Pregnancy, as nervous and cautious as I am about, is easing up. My little bump is my favorite part to lather on belly butter on. It feels so strange, a little one is in there! My boobies have definitely gotten LESS tender and feel pretty good, aside from their ridiculous size! The nausea may now be a thing of the past. I am beginning to enjoy and ease up on the reality that I am pregnant.

Ryan, the love of my life, I can’t go into detail about that because it is just too cheesy for words but I am truly lucky. In other works, no words to describe the sense of peace we have.

Oh, I went to a friends Baby Shower this Saturday. As much as I really dislike social functions, especially at a larger scale, nothing beats seeing my very good friend glowing with one of the cutest 27-week bump I have ever seen. She looked gorgeous!

And, well speaking of compliments, a good friend and co-worker nicely blurted out, “You look good!” My puzzled “what do you mean” face had her add, “For being about 4 months pregnant, you look good and healthy.” She had a tough pregnancy, in the sense of symptoms for her were really amplified throughout the pregnancy. That is why I try not to complain about minor things like tiredness, feeling winded, and a hint of nausea here and there. That really perked me up…Thanx

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

YOUR LOVE TAKES ME HIGHER...

WEEK 14





Oh grief why? I officially have the flu as Ryan and I were able to see Little Bean after 4 whole weeks of no ultrasound and oh, how he/she has grown! (just look at those photos!!) It was beautiful but I was too drained, pain filled to produce the tears to cry on how exciting it was to see this fully formed baby. I just couldn’t get over it. There it was, on the screen, being silly, moving and bouncing around. This time, not being shy. I swear he/she even waved. He/she showed off it’s long little limbs as it moved about. Doctor said everything looked great and out of the gray area of the “m” word. Sweet music to my ears. This particular visit put this pregnancy into perspective. Something wonderful was quietly grown in my belly everyday, whether I wanted it to or not. Made dealing with the flu, every trial and tribulation, worth while…oh the love! (with Ryan giggles)

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

SEASICK, YET STILL DOCKED...

WEEK13:

Just when I thought, "Okay, I have gotten my first-week back at work and these great birthday concerts out of the way, I will be able to focus on work more."

[sigh]

Why do I bother controlling what seems to be, an uncontrollable year! After Santa Barbara, I took Friday off from work. As much as I dreaded this so (I hate calling in to work but this was a planned day off), I spent all of Friday and Saturday sleeping! I mean, SLEEPING. Okay, the week obviously caught up to me. I get it; I need to learn a balance here. Then there is this new venture of buying a house that has me overwhelmed because it seems more realistic as the days go by. Another huge adult responsibility under my belt.

Back to work Tuesday, Monday was a holiday, so I had a lovely long holiday weekend to recover and get it together. Tuesday comes and I am plagued with work issues. This would include a surge of stress. I sought out support and my co-workers are great but no matter what, I will be a worrywart by nature. Please let me get through Tuesday!! Another thing that was happening was our home inspection midday! Ryan was there but I was at work. He was the far better half for this part of escrow. I got through Tuesday, sorta, and called Ryan to see if dinner and inspection talk would work. We had yummy Indian food! That evening at dinner I started to feel a bit odd but I treaded through, it must be Little Bean symptoms, no biggie. We had a great dinner, wonderful conversation, and more tummy-fun after dinner…Buster’s yogurt!!!

Got home and now was feeling achier and just headed to bed. Wednesday was going to be a long day, Back-to-School Night already!!

[gulp]

My classroom was nowhere near ready and I was nowhere nearly all there in my head…and there it was ladies and gentlemen (are men reading this?)…the flu! I had to be at work until about 8pm this night and it has not just been hot in LA but just humid and muggy in San Marino!! I know this as I drive 6 miles home; the temperature drops a good 4-5 degrees and increases as I go to work. This balmy day was a good 98ยบ F! Heaven please help me get through this!!

I am thankful tomorrow I have my 14-week follow-up so I could get a 2 for 1 visit! I can't seem to get off this boat ride and curb this sickness!!!